Today has been a much easier day so far. I was able to gather the energy to clean the kitchen and remembered to take something out for dinner. Maybe this is a sign that I’ll be back in my groove soon and this month of melancholy will be behind me. I know, one day is not really a reliable sign either way. But I can choose to be hopeful about it and that’s what makes all the difference.
One of my textbooks came in the mail today and I was faced with the weight of my decision to go back to school. No, literally. That thing weighs a ton! I laughed when I realized I would once again become familiar with toting around a heavy backpack all day. Ah, well… that’s what Jansports are made for.
On to the important stuff.
Number One – I am thankful for Thirdspace. Becoming a Christian was a big deal for me. I struggled (well, still struggle) with a lot of what it takes to be solid in my faith and felt that pretty much every church I went to was failing me in one specific area — I didn’t feel like I could ask questions. And, if I did, I could only ask questions that would be appropriate. I wanted more of a dialogue. I wanted to listed to various perspectives rather than the one perspective that your pastor is telling you MUST be right. Thirdspace has been a huge blessing for me. I am able to talk freely and have my questions answered without judgement for my having asked in the first place. I can be myself. It’s such a fabulous feeling.
Number Two – I am thankful for Positive Life Radio. So thankful that I donate. When I’m having a rough day, I can throw on PLR and simply enjoy the upbeat music that makes me smile and forget about all the hate and negativity for a while. I can focus on the message of love pouring out of my speakers.
Number Three – I am thankful for a clean kitchen. Clutter on the counters creates clutter in my mind. When you come in to my house and it looks like a disaster, I am not well. Whether mentally or physically. Lee heard a message on the radio about how a woman’s representation of herself is often her home and that you can tell what sort of state she’s in by the state of her house. I know that isn’t universally true, but it is amazingly accurate with me. My clean kitchen has made me feel more relaxed today.
Number Four – I am thankful for time going by quickly. Not just so I can start school soon, but also because I am impatiently waiting for the cool weather of fall. I want to put on my leggings, boots, layered tank tops and cardigans. Figure out which of my billion scarves I am going to wear for the day. Enjoy leaving the windows in the house open and relaxing in the fragrant breeze you only experience in autumn.
Number Five – I am thankful for Atelier Cologne Orange Sanguine. It is a perfume that makes me feel happy when I smell it. Granted, that’s a common feeling when enjoying the aroma therapy of orange oil, but this particular perfume is the perfect fusion of orange and a deeper floral that simply makes my mind feel content. If only it weren’t so expensive! I’m sure my friends aren’t all as thankful for it as I am since I make them smell my arm whenever I am wearing it. Haha.
Bittersweet Strength 